Warning/description: this is a really weird dark/bittersweet poem/story with some references to fart fetishism.
A veil of apathy surrounds my soul
Indifference towards this societal evil
I stopped having a desire to further my goal
No, dear, you don't have to be my friend
Learned helplessness is what I got
Not in a bad way, things haven't changed
My perception did, not all has to be fought
Living in harmony with God's will, estranged
Let's not ignore the good things of our lives
Look around you, what do you see?
Good and bad are your choices sometimes
We'll start and see the good in you and me
Hate is in the eye of the giver
It's about the hater, not the hated
But, what do I know?
I'm just a little piece of God.
I can feel the depressurization. All the evil I saw is still there, but much of it has stopped to appear evil to me, and good things have stopped being concealed to my senses. A veil of apathy has surrounded my soul. I cannot feel anything, yeah I cannot feel anything. All my sadness I had has become numb. My desires and my cravings are gone. I cannot feel anything.
I wake up from my bed, feeling a lot lighter. I don't feel the sadness I used to feel. I don't feel anything. Is this the veil of apathy that is surrounding my soul? Total indifference towards almost everything. Did I reach an
altered
state
of
mind
?
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What is this? All the things I used to strongly wish are now wishes of the past.
No, dear, you don't have to be my friend.
No, dear, you don't have to hug me.
A fart fetish anime before 2025? If that happens, it's okay. If that doesn't happen, it's okay. I'll get myself lulled by the Dao.
What is this feeling? Big Tech has censored something I loved. It's okay, though, but I should stop using Big Tech. I will not associate with them, we'll live parallel lives, to each their own.
You hate me, but I don't care .-^ my desires are gone.
I see the birds flying in the sky, but even if I didn't see them, it would have been okay. This is a start of a new beginning.
Is this the right balance? A calm after the storm? A calm after the storm before a new storm?
When I'll be a creepy 55 years old man, my chances will be gone. Another life gone wasted, another death that brought nothing to our Mother Gaia.
^
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I should enjoy my 20's before it's too late. Only an eighth of your life is actually (possibly) good.
Apathy and indifference have become the last virtues of this meaningless society and this meaningless life.
The liberation will be happen too late.
I was born too early.
Before the liberation, my body will be buried in Mount Onara Cemetery, and my soul will be gone.
A new generation is being born.
Why are you staring into my eyes? They're empty.
My demons have drowned with me.
Depression is over, and something new has started.
==== A new age of apathy ====
==== An old concept of pessimism ====
==== Make the future remember you ====
==== Because we're all gonna die ====
I will do nothing to change my life. There's nothing I can do about it anyway. I never chose to be born.
Have I become indestructible? Or is this just a weak shell? Nothing can stop me now!
I feel this veil of indifference surrounding me, forever a burning fever that cleanses my wishes and cravings away from my poisoned mind.
There's no need to fight for anything anymore, whatever happens, everything's gonna be alright, this veil of apathy is protecting me. I'm ready to live a new neutral life, centered around what The All has to offer me, struggling has always been useless, a waste of my energies.